KatsuCurryDon
Kapo CYH
Born a Pisces on 7th March. Loves Pocky, 소녀시대 and Mousehunt.

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[KatsuCurryDon Says Decisions]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, August 22, 2011 @ 12:44 AM]

Was it worth it. Was the choice worth. Worth to take everything away.

I believe it's worth. But it has come to a breaking point.

It's a totally different category, yet it's comparable.
I will never make you as happy as it will.

The smile and the happiness. The sounds. It's different.
I'll never be as good.

I'm never good anyway.

All I had done was bring pain and nuisance.
The happy times we spent. Totally becomes nothing when compared to such a simple stuff.

But I guess. As long as you are happy. I'll shall leave you be.
It's an undying fact.
I'm nowhere there.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says 对不起]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Saturday, April 23, 2011 @ 9:59 AM]

不打给你,你会打给我吗???
我在想着你在做什么时,你也在想吗?
我能应为害怕,害怕你生气,害怕你离开。想多不想,放下所有去找你, 你呢?
我能为你做所有的事,就算自己不喜欢,辛苦,心酸,也无所谓。你呢?

我从来都没怀疑你,质疑你。。可是为什么现在是那么的难。

也许是我自己的问题。

我小心眼,嫉妒心重。。可是已不是重点了。
也许听了可笑。 可是我没办法不想,
虽然明白说谎的意义,理由。
可是放不下也一直想,竟然应为他,你骗了我。
不是事实。事实是我自己的个性而让你撒了谎。

我很想就忘掉。

若你真的有那么爱我,你也该了解我痛恨骗子。
可是我恨不下去。。。应为我太爱你了。。
反而也只有默默的怪自己,为何然自己的情绪盖过理智。忘了了解你的个性。



都是我的错。。。是时候检讨自己。。。


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Trying]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Tuesday, April 12, 2011 @ 10:26 PM]

My life is you.

But yours, is not me.

I tried my best to really feel you are not taking it for granted.

Trying.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Randoms]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, April 10, 2011 @ 11:28 PM]

I tot time could bypass everything.
But it could not.
A simple trigger, its nothing big. Just seeing it makes it so hurting to the heart.
I destroyed everything with my own hands.

Can't get over it. Why?


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Companionship]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Thursday, March 17, 2011 @ 9:38 PM]

Saying that I lost a bunch of friends, not really the case. Rather to say, I lost the companionship. The times having fun together and w/e.

Did you even treasure me as a friend at all? Where were you guys when I needed the support the most. Not to say at the first time to ask whether I'm fine. But what about after? Not even a single care or support is shown. So much for being a good friend. Really disgust me. All the trust I gave you people.

Not that I wanna harp on the same thing over and over again. But I just don't like it.

I feel angst. Jealous. Why is it the effect on me is much more escalated when on the other hand, my dearest is just, like this.

Goes to show how much I mean to you people. Mere puppet.

Brothers. I miss you guys lot. I missed celebrating my birthday with you guys even though it may be just a simple dinner. But circumstances led us to not able to have it this year.

I've got nothing left, except for my family, brothers and my darling.
I let my parents go, because its high time they start enjoying retired slow pace life. Instead of worrying for me.
My brothers have their own lives.
My darling has her own circle of friends.

Ends up when they are all not around for me. I'm still alone.

I'm giving up too much. Far too much. Yet I believe its what I'm suppose to do.. Tell me I'm wrong.

But deep down, its not the about the people. Its about the companionship.

I've a boring life.

But I'm not going to let yours be that too. Its too selfish. It's the reason why I said, I don't wanna care and don't wanna think. Not because I really meant it.

Finally, I'm stuck in something that nothing can solve it. Good Job. What a challenge.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says ZzZ]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Saturday, March 5, 2011 @ 9:29 PM]

I just wanna stick with you. Like glue.

I dunno what to do when I'm alone. So lost.

Kekeke. I think i'm dead.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says tsk]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on @ 7:32 PM]

Aren't you even much curious about what I'm doing?


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says ...]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, February 28, 2011 @ 12:03 AM]

心中所有的不满。。

应为你再而消失。。

可是,我真的好害怕。

为什么,我们都缺少了那安全感。

不要离开我。


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says tired]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, February 27, 2011 @ 3:26 PM]

actually im very tired too. but im hanging on cos of you. fighting!


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Output Output]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, February 25, 2011 @ 1:00 AM]

Output. Output.. EVERY SINGLE ****ING DAY ALSO OUTPUT.

I feel so guilty. Not having the time for you.

I really hate this job. I need some motivation.

I wished I could have been a better one. Such a fail boyfriend.

I'm really damn tired of all these sickening nonsense.

My priority is you.

At this point of time. I wished I could be there for you.

How can I not even spot she's in pain. WTF were you doing. Good job.

Screwed up.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Me.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, February 18, 2011 @ 12:48 AM]

I Have A Weird Character.

I adhere to a certain set of rules.

I'm stubborn.

I Think Alot.

I Am Random. That's Who I Am.

I'm Hard To Be With.

Its just my style to poke at people. I like talking. I like making random comments. And I really don't care how people say or judge me. I don't really give a damn about how other people think about it. I don't need to give you an explanation.

But this time. I'll try not to. Because it's gonna hurt people sooner or later.
너 때문에 <3

I wonder why I'm even trying. I'm judging myself so badly lol.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says 原谅我]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Saturday, February 12, 2011 @ 1:49 AM]

这几天,真的真的好累。。 工作压力,人与人之间的相处之道。 说老实话,逼得我快疯了。

也许,是我自己弱了。以前的我,绝对不让那么多事情发生 。可是,现在的我。。。

人在思想混乱的时刻生病,只会带来而外的麻烦。我的脑死了。我发现我没法子再催眠自己。也许是一种现象。在告诉我是时候面对现实。。

已经两年了,不,一年半。不重要,重要的不是时间多久。重要的是时间根本没有办法疗伤。时间只把伤往后脑抛。当事情发生,或有人把历史挖出来。那种前所未有的伤痛全建设在身上。原来我也没那么厉害。以前所说的风凉话,一个一个被我现在的一举一动所推翻。笑话,好大的笑话。

我想了好久,太多东西放不下,只会让自己痛苦。可是,要真么样把它放下呢?自己也没法子。

可是我做了一个决定。。也许是我人身重要的一个决定。一个完全不符合我性格的决定。这个决定一定会伤害到两方。也很有可能,做了就连话都没得说,朋友都没得做。好自私,也许对你的伤害会更大,可是我没有办法再这样下去。已经完全的把我人生吃掉。

我决定把那年没送出去的礼物送出去。不管后果会是怎样,我真心希望,我们还是朋友。事情已经过去了。读了就算了。也许把东西抛掉了,我真的能放下。就算是꺼져 줄게 잘 살아也做得到。

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好久没听到人跟我说了这句话。讲真的,有爽到。可事是一个错误的决定。我做了一个完全不尊重你的事。好不应该。但是就不说。。让他这样好吗?我不知道。我只知道 ,你没有必要对我好。没有必要做那么多。没有必要担心。试问要怎么去喜欢和爱一个连自己都不自爱的人。不值得。我错了 。我好想正常地去面对可是我做不到 。不想要伤害到任何人。明明就可以是很好的关系却被我的选择而搞砸。我不知道自己想怎样。也只能希望你被把期望放在我身上。你是值得更好的。不想伤害到你。不想应为太久没恋爱而接受,而让它久没办法画上个美丽的结局。

也许说了这些,会自私了一点。不,是很自私。可是你,你们,都对我都很重要。

请不要应为我的话而感到伤心。你有你自己的选择。只要你开心就好。我也只想把话说出来,让自己好过一点。我也没有要你干什么。就希望我能过得了这一关。我相信,一定会比较好一点。

对不起,我好对不起你。除了对不起也不知道该说什么好。原本就是开心的事,发生在我身上却是一个悲剧。 原谅我人格有问题。原谅我今天说的话。然后让它过去吧。

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一晚之内能做出那么多伤害人的事,说出那么多伤害人的话。真的不知道应不应该后悔。Burden 死我。也 burdem 死别人。好不应该。赵永康,你真的有好大的一个问题。也许你根本就不应该和人接触。做的事情,说的话都烦死人伤害到人。没错你好失败。

好久没哭了。永康,你今天终于泪了。应该高兴。四五六年都带着悲伤和恨。是时候看开了。哭过,从新开始把!


原谅我的坦白,原谅我的一时自私。
放心,我还是我。
不要把这po读得那么认真。
希望大家都明白,给我那么一点点的空间来诉苦。

也希望你们给我时间。事情过了,也许会好一些。


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says MOU FEEL WORK!!!]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, February 7, 2011 @ 1:39 AM]

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In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says lol]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, January 31, 2011 @ 12:43 AM]

should not be blogging. Something is really wrong if I'm back on blogger.

You should start moving on. Its time.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Hi]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, January 30, 2011 @ 1:31 AM]

You know what,

You are a failure. You fail so much. You are a freaking coward. Scared of taking risks. Scared of consequences.

You are a fuck-up. Can't you see you never do anything right? What the fuck is wrong with you. When will you wake up your bloody idea.

You should just bloody go die. No one respects you. Everyone despise you.

Self-worth? You are not worth anything at all. No one, nobody finds you worth the time.

You fail so much at life. Look what is happening to you. Where is your bloody confidence. Where's your voice. Where's the heart that was so strong. As strong as a brick. Beating as loud as a lion's roar.

KSHG Yong Hong. You Suck.

I pity you sometimes. For being so sick in the mind.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Tired shit]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Thursday, January 27, 2011 @ 9:31 PM]

Fatigue brings poison to your mind.

But It ain't fatigue that did so.

Uber Uber Tired.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says no feel for anything at all.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on @ 7:55 AM]

i know this is wrong. i know its not going to work out. but yet im still going to try...

i thought i had given up back then. totally forgotten about it. i tot i could get on with life. but i never really did forget. all i did was pushed everything to the back of my mind. seems like everything comes back just so easily. guess its really that important.

im trying very hard not to. i respect what you think. i respect you. yet i find it hard to do so.

i guess i'll just have to let go like before. its better for the both of us. i believe so. unless. you tell me otherwise...

which i hope you do.....

just wat is the best for everyone...


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says 想你知道。。]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Tuesday, January 25, 2011 @ 11:30 PM]

其实一直以来 ,你都是最重要的。

可惜 ,是我不配。


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says ]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, January 24, 2011 @ 1:26 AM]

Since long I blogged about personal stuffs. Well I mean like what I actually did for the day and the week or whatever.

Woke up after a 5 hour sleep. I think my body clock screwed up again. Need to desperately get back the 7 hours. Bought breakfast for my parents. First time for the year. Dunno why I did that also. Normally I don't. But den When I really do. All dun feel like eating. But anyway, had the awesome lor mee for breakfast. The thing about this kind of market place is that people are damn friendly. I actually had fun chatting with the stall vendors. They are a cute bunch. LOL.

Wasn't exactly in the right mood for shopping. The freaking room like in a mess. See liao damn pek chek. Furthermore tasks just keeps coming in.
The Seng Du came at around 1+ The worker come in that time super heng. The fridge they hold higher = I inside hospital liao. Nearly kena ceiling fan. How exciting.

Nevertheless, started painting again. Its actually done with the help from a darling that actually sacrificed her study time for it. But as you know, I'm too much a perfectionist. So I decided to even the shades of every corners.
And so the work started, from breakfast time all the way till 11 pm. No food, only one can of Kickapoo. The walls look so perfect now. So much for being perfect. Finished everything, packed up and cleaned. Stand up already just wan to faint only. LOL.

PS: The parts we overshot, I covered it up. Turns our the paint was the right one. ((: I help covered up the ones you overshot too. LOL. So you owe me one. xP You know I'm joking.

Although everything like paint finish liao. Still I'm feeling something is missing. Just dunno what it is. Maybe I'll know what it is after I can think properly. Hahahs. The paint we bought was odourless. I don't smell anything at all. But the one that was the original colour is smelly ttm. Smell whole day, like on drugs like that.

Anyways, I cannot sleep. And its like 2.19 AM. Needs to wake up at 5.30 AM.

((: <3


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says ]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, January 23, 2011 @ 3:02 AM]

如果事情又那么简单,那该多好。

其实你变了。。。 但变得最多的。。是我。

请你告诉我,不应该有这一种感觉。

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好久没深夜blog了。 也好久没用华文blog。
明明英文就好过华文,就是“假强”要 step 一个很 artistic 的 feel。 哈哈哈。

新年要到了。但是真的没有想过新年的feel。 没有要咚咚锵的感觉。真的是过他妈的不死。

想到工作,真的就累die我。

家里一团糟。厨房没有装修。资本上就是干那塞 。窗口没有换,每天amsorsor。

好像就放弃一切。

也许那天起就不应该答应。


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Im sorry]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Thursday, January 6, 2011 @ 7:22 PM]

I'm sorry for not able to be there by your side to console you.
I'm sorry for not having enough courage to go down straight and help out
I'm sorry for finding so much excuses to hide my myself.

I'm nobody to you. As much as I wanted to help. I couldn't. If I were to be there, would it be a burden to you rather den a consolation. Will I able to make things better for you. What will people say about you.

I'm merely just a friend. Someone that somehow got lost somewhere. I'm not even a close friend. My status to you ain't even qualified to show that much care and concern.

Excuses.

I lost my courage. I lost the ability to take risk.

But, I promised no matter what. I'm mentally there with you. Though I may not be there.

Sorry, to the one who gave me dew me an eclipse


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says ]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, December 17, 2010 @ 1:54 AM]

no one reads this place anymore. I guess its fine to post.

Yes, I'm stressed. I'm stretched so far out that I cannot imagine I would be. Its not me. I'm the kind who is lifestyle-orientated.

Work stress. Restrictions. Family. Bills. I'm just 8 months pass 21 and I'm feeling like an 38 year old uncle.

I don't feel young anymore. I get tired easily. My mental strength ain't as good as it used to be. I'm afraid of things. I make decisions thinking of 100% success. I'm not that risk-taker Yong Hong anymore.

I wanna find back my soul. I lost my touch in music. I can't play the guitar anymore, I can't sing in high soprano anymore. I can't do alot of things I'm able to just 1 year back.

I just wanna be myself. I'm acting a role that is not me.

I guess, sometimes.. its fate


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Reason.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Thursday, October 7, 2010 @ 6:52 AM]

Sad to say, i'm not getting any better with all the chemical trainings. The days just get shorter when i sleep early. I missed out alot falling sick. Must be dust.

I was packing my stuffs that day, preparing to move anytime. Although I dun have much stuff, it was alot to take care of. I realise that I haven't dispose the book I wrote. Took it out and read it. Could not really believe I would write such things. Wondered why I did so much that I felt I'll nv do it again. I guessed I really did like you alot that time.

Moving off made me understand alot that I did not previously. A few more weeks till posting. Few months till new house. I realised that I havent really moved on with life at all. The things that I said Ive let go I havent. I lied. Not to anyone but myself.

I need to change my lifestyle. I feel like Im getting older as each day passes. lol. Each day just seemed to be so tiring. I guess I need a reason why I keep on fighting.

I believe I can pull this through. Like all you guys whom I care. No matter what you people do, you will definately handle it. Have faith in yourself. I love you people. ((:


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says ]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, October 4, 2010 @ 11:41 PM]

I'm just fucking tired of everything.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Random. Mental Fatigue]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, September 26, 2010 @ 2:59 AM]

Stupid Danny. 2.30 AM Yesterday . 2 BLOODY 30 AM. Msn me ask me go his house fix com. SMLJ. But den also worth the trip la. Get to see the Phantom I wanted to buy but didn't cos I decided to save the money buy presents and pay for bills. Danny bought the red one. My favourite colour. Envy la. But bo bian, who ask me treat someone else better den I treat myself. LOL.

Initially when I went to get the case with him, we both were freaking stunned. The box as big as the shoe rack in package selling at IKEA. The person used a trolley to move it somemore. We tot, siao liao, sure damn heavy. But lifting the thing up, its even lighter den my current ICUTE. LOL. Total worth.

And so, since I was at his house already, might as well finish fixing everything. By the time I reached home was like 5 AM. I didn't even go bank, didn't even go ICA to make passport. I regret not buying Mcdonald's breakfast before sleeping.

The new owners brought a contractor to the house. I guess this is it. Moving soon. Don't know to where. I lived here for 10 years. Altough the place didn't really bring back good memories to me. But I did lived for 10 years. The places I go to, the special memories and things that happened under this roof.

I guess, I grew much with this house. So much that I don't wanna move. I fear changes. I fear not being able to adapt. Why is this kind of fear getting more as I age. Why so much considerations.
But, come to think of it, maybe the change of a newer environment may make me a better person. Maybe because I grew so protected and so fear risking whatever I had that stop me from moving on.

Guess I'll be busy for quite a while.
Pocky is still my love. I quit eating pocky because I was scared of having diabetes. But I guess not having them makes me drain energy faster everyday that I grow older faster.
Brace up, my pink little sticks. Your father is back ((:


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says 反正你也不知道]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Wednesday, September 22, 2010 @ 10:00 PM]

好久, 好久都没有用华文来po文章了。

或许是不想让莫人明白我究竟在说些什么,也或许是英文程度有限,没办法表达出我想说的话。

每个人都有不同的个性,勉强的去改变他/她的个性会让对方感到不舒服,甚至能说是侵犯到各人的隐私了。在一个需要团体精神的工作环境下工作,本来就已经很难了,为何还要把事情弄得更复杂。每个人都有不对的时候,公说公有理,婆说婆有理。 有谁希望自己是败者。想赢的心态,很难否认,大家都有。

但是问题根本就不出在我们彼此想赢的心态。而是沟通的问题。也许我们没听从你所说的东西,又或许我们每次都吊儿郎当。但你有必要摆出一副“我是最大的,你们都得听我!”的样子吗?无可否认,你是有好声好气的说过,而我们也选择坐视不理,但有必要应为这样而摆出老大的架势吗? 何曾你想过,自从没人重视你的指示时,你对我们说话的态度又有好到哪里?

一个人不接受你,也许那个人有问题。两个人不接受你,或许那两个人都有问题。 但一斑的人都不服从你,是否想想看,问题是出现在我们身上还是你的身上。每个人个性不同,但没有必要总是要一群人来配合你。尤其是不必要的时候。为何不一人退一步。有时顺着大家舒服的意,大家必要时也顺着你。可是我总是看到因为你的举止而使得每个人都不舒服。有时候,过分强求也未必是件好事。

做事情,对事不对人。别把你的想法套在别人身上。把自己的想法摊开来说,看看大众是否同意。一定要听的指示,用客气一点的态度去说服人,一声“Please”或一声“Help me can, Thanks”,也许也好听过直接叫“莫莫人,去做这份事” 虽然,必须听你的指示是理所当然,但客气一点,我们也或许不会感到那么不甘愿。人总是要哄的吗。

不知不觉,四个月已过了。所谓的考试也已经结束了。多两个月,有时一个新的开始。最近也忙到没时间和最好的朋友们相处。也忙到没时间理会一些心事。好期待即将来临的block leave。 好想好好的休息。但我看休息的时间也不会很多,得忙着搬房子。

我到底选择了一个对的路吗?这是我真真想要过的生活吗?
有时候,真的是累的想放弃。我那么的辛苦,到底是为了谁,为了什么?
我发现,我已失去生命中的目标,何曾悲哀啊!!


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Stress LOL.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Tuesday, September 14, 2010 @ 1:15 AM]

Never once in my life, I've taken an exam so seriously. Not my PSLE, Os or even my diploma.

I fear failure. For the first time, failing exams seemed so catastrophic to me. The very first exam in my life that I actually fear.

Trainee life is nearing an end. After next week, everything will be a little less taxing. More time to relax, more time to rest.

I need to pull up my socks. There's much to learn.
Much to anticipate after exams. Klub with the gang, KPOP night, Block leave, etc.

Mugging starts today. Wish me luck.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Nope. Not Doing This.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Wednesday, September 8, 2010 @ 3:06 AM]

No, you are not suppose to do this on blogger.
No, you cannot say this on blogger.
No, you do not wish to say this on blogger.
No, I do not wanna curse on my blog. I don't wanna swear on my blog.

FUCK YOU.
I just did. Couldn't help it.

FUCK YOU AGAIN.
I did it again

FUCK 你不死.
FUCK 你死了不再去死
That got better.

It irks me to see you happy. I told myself that you had the best and I gladly accept the hurts and cuts to myself. For that couple of months. Or the past year. I did. I did let go. But it starts to haunt me back at this time. Does it even matter when? The sight of your happiness, the emotions I had that landed me in such plight, makes me hate you even more than I hate anything else.

Its wrong, somebody correct me.

If you know what I'm talking about, save me. If not FUCK off. I'll accept words of encouragement even if its damn bloody useless. Its the thought that counts. It has always been it.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Nobody Knows]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, August 29, 2010 @ 3:38 AM]

The reason I sleep late. Nobody Knows.
The reason I emo. Nobody Knows.
The reason I get high. Nobody Knows.
The reason I get agitated. Nobody Knows.
The reason I feel what I feel. Nobody Knows.
The reason I say the things I say. Nobody Knows.

Nobody Knows.

Don't judge me.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Busy.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Tuesday, August 24, 2010 @ 10:55 PM]

Its gonna be so tight again this week.

Montage Deadline, Thurs.
Sending Milton off a Airport, Wed Night.
Council Happy Hour, Thurs. (Meaning Gates Closed Till 7)
National Day Appreciation Ceremony, Friday.

Gonna start planning the road for my road march. Yes, I will be walking around Singapore. LOL. It started off as an idea. But now I'm feeling the kick for it. Haha.

It will be comparing the difference between a road march and a route march. With a minimised version of a field pack. No either whether timing will be the same as the BMT style since there's traffic. LOL.

No idea when its gonna take place. But definitely sometime before year end.

How can I act like I don't care when I do. I failed much I guess. Such a failure. Its no wonder the path is so stagnant. You are just too timid Yong Hong. =.=

GWS test tomorrow. LOL. I decided not to study that hard since I just passed when I studied like shit for EOD. LOL!!!

First Step. Four Square. ((:


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Fresh Air.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, August 20, 2010 @ 10:13 PM]

4 full months of staying in. The bunk that is always full of dust. The bedsheets that you get too lazy to change them every week. The cup noodles you eat. The chicken cutlet at night. Finally, all this is OVER! Because I get to breathe FRESH AIR. Yes. You heard it. WE'RE STAYING OUT!!!

I guess, its nothing really much to celebrate about. Maybe its the lack of exercising, but I get so sick every time I book in. The "mini-flu" and the breakouts. Freaking irritating. I think its dust.

Counting the days I spent in there, it actually is about the same as the duration I stayed in Tekong. Pros n Cons to staying in. But I do see the cons more and more each day in camp. LOL.

C.N Blue is in town. I wanted to go airport have a look. But got so lazy and tired to go out at all.

I think I rather spent the time to focus on what I need to.

Made a new friend, like that.. LOL


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says TO_DO_LIST]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Wednesday, August 18, 2010 @ 8:59 PM]

TO_DO_LIST

1.) Pack room. Since moving sooner or later, packing goes into boxes.
2.) Come up with computer quotations. Since IT Fair coming, hands getting itchy.
3.) Finish graduation montage. Since next week gotta show OC, two person doing always better den on.
4.) Change a background skin. Since I've been using this for a long time.
5.) Stop complaining. Since I've been complaining even up to now.
6.) Gather people buy Mousehunt Tee with me. Since I'm a hardcore Mousehunter.
7.) Meet up with LB at his house. Since I told him I'll go ages ago but I didn't.
8.) Finish up the rest of my videos. Since I have some time to watch them.

Been having a busy week. But when there's great news, you'll know all the effort you've put in was worth it. Even though there ain't anything that is relevant but the timing was just right. Still going to be busy. But everything is just so worth the effort suddenly. ((:


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says WTF. Just WTF ttm]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, August 15, 2010 @ 2:35 AM]

I'm not saying I'm not entirely wrong. The fucked up part is while I was living my life not bothering trying to get myself back. Then one day out of the blue, I heard or know something that I should not know at all. What the fuck is wrong. When I didn't do any shit at all. Do I deserve this at all.

All the while, I did my part as a good friend. Supported you mentally. At certain times gave you words of support. And that's all I did. I knew my role. I played it so well that I even avoided contact with you totally at all. But why is it that I heard things coming from the other end that's totally spoiling my life.

I'm not fucking expecting you'll do anything to help me or what. I'm just disappointed that when I cared this much. I think of the consequences this much. I did what I'm suppose to. Yet all I get is some nonsense rumors about me.

I can't blame you. Neither can I talk to you about it. You know how this is so torturing. Its not you at all. Its the person around you, beside you doing all the shit. I guess that's behind your back too.

Why is it that I'm the victim, at the same time I'm the culprit too. Why am I the only one suffering all the shit that the person you loved so much did out of whatever reason.

Am I just too good? Or am I that fucked up that I get these kinds of shit.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Hiatus OVER!]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, August 13, 2010 @ 11:45 PM]

Finally the parade was over. 13 weeks of training. Stretched over close to 4 freaking months. Standing in the scorching sun thinking why your Saturdays are being burnt like this. All this had finally paid off during the NDP. Good and Bad responses. But no matter what's being said, we did our best and I believe we stood proud and were so very damn patriotic at least for that very moment on the Padang. Neither did the spirit died curing city march given the mental and physical stress. Timers sang till their voices break, everyone tried their best to keep in steps straining to hear the drum sounds over from across god knows how far.

All the burns weekends or skin. Its over.

I enjoyed myself over the period. Even though it was tiring. It was once in a lifetime experience. But if I'm to do the next one. I'll surely be wearing No.1 uniform. Being the "Kawalan Kehormatan" contingent.

Counting down days, its been also 4 months in Air Force. I liked life so far. People were fine. You'll just have to accept the differences people have. Jokes everywhere, about me about everyone. The life accepting shit we went through. Its just can't be describe using mere words alone. Its so very different from the jungles and grass we seen in Tekong (Obviously).

The world is so very small. The things you say and people hear. The news spreads. Eventually whatever fuck you said about someone. They'll know. I'm not blaming you for it. For I heard only from one story. There are unlimited possibilities to the reason why you "back-stabbed" me when knowledge from each other were merely names. I choose to believe whatever reason you had, its good. But trust me, you'll eat your own words someday. No matter whether you "wake up" that day or not I don't care. But lets believe in something called "karma".

It was a mistake trying. And I will not make the same mistakes again.
Its no use comparing. I'm just not like that.

Just lost of words. Having much to say yet nothing seems to be chronological nor logical. Sometimes, things are just meant to be kept.

Things I did, you never knew. I hope you never do. Cause when you know, you will feel so damn guilty that you never cherished what you had. When my last breathe is gone, and the very thing you got accustomed to is not there anymore. Do not regret.

Don't take things for granted.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Hiatus]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, July 12, 2010 @ 10:09 PM]

I give up. I'm just not worth anyone's time.

Hiatus till Tiring Days are over.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says The real therapy]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on @ 12:06 AM]

I Cannot believe I forsaken Van. The tangerine dream. Fukai Mori, Bokenshatachi, rakuen, oasis, yesterday and today. I feel my rocker soul coming back. LOL. Guess dear TM Revo and X Japan are next. I remember I actually cried when D.A.I disbanded. Im damn old. 3 years already they sepearted. Wow.

Such wonderful lyrics in a power full song.

深い深い森の奥に 今もきっ と
置きざりにした心 隠してるよ

探すほどの力もなく 疲れ果てた
人々は永遠の 闇に消える

小さいままなら きっと 今でも見えたかな

僕たちは 生きるほどに
失くしてく 少しずつ
偽りや 嘘をまとい
立ちすくむ 声もなく

蒼い蒼い空の色も 気付かないまま
ぎてゆく毎日が 変わってゆく

つくられた枠組みを越え 今を生きて
錆びついた心 また動き出すよ

時のリズムを知れば もう一度 飛べるだろう

僕たちは さまよいながら
生きてゆく どこまでも
信じてる 光求め
歩きだす 君と今

僕たちは 生きるほどに
失くしてく 少しずつ
偽りや 嘘をまとい
立ちすくむ 声もなく

僕たちは さまよいながら
生きてゆく どこまでも
振り返る 道をとざし
歩いてく 永遠に

立ちすくむ 声もなく 生きてゆく 永遠に

Im sorry I've forsaken Jpop, Rock, Cpop all for Kpop. I should keep my ear plugs on from now on. ((:



In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Freaking Good Choreo and Lyrics.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, July 11, 2010 @ 8:18 PM]

Tae Yang - I Need A Girl Ft G-Dragon
Album : SOLAR

Tired of being alone
Sick of being single
I think I need me a girl
I need a Girl like….

생각 없는 말투
어린애들 말구 날 감싸 안아줄 yeh~~
심심 할때 가끔
노는 여자 말구 나만 사랑해줄

가만있어도 남자 놈들 전화길 내밀지만
자랑스럽게 내 사진을 꺼내 보이는 그런 girl

Girl I need a girl 뭘 해도 이쁜 몸매도 이쁜
girl I need a girl baby I need you girl you need me too

치마보다 청바지가 더 잘 어울리는 그런 여자
김치볶음밥은 내가 잘 만들어 대신 잘 먹을 수 있는 여자
Uh~~ 나이가 많아도 어려 보이는 여자
난 그런 여자가 좋더라 know what I mean

부끄러운 척 하면서도 당돌 할 줄 아는 girl
평소엔 조신한척해도 같이 있으면 you know what I’m talking about

난 이런 여자가 좋더라 LA LA LA
외모는 NOT A ISSUE BUT,
멋을 아는 귀여운 GIRL
취미는 달라도 취향은 같아
영화나 음악을 볼 때면 말이 통하는 GIRL (YES)
I LOVE GIRLS
GIRLS I DO ADORE
사람들 앞에선 지조 있게 놀아
내 앞에선 아잉 난 몰라
아침에 날 깨우는 목소리
MORNING KISS
하루를 시작하고 싶어 (I WANT IT ALL)
밤에는 내 무릎에 기대 자장가를 들으며 네 꿈 꾸고 싶어

다시 내 가슴을 뛰게 해줘
다시 달콤한 노랠 만들게 해줘
you know 돈이나 뭐 단지 그런게 아냐
내 맘을 주고 싶은 사람

girl I need a girl umm yeah yeah
girl like you gotta make you mine
I’ma treat you right baby ooh

girl I need a girl yeah
girl I need a girl yeah

Girl 내 말을 듣고 있니
girl baby I need you girl you need me too
girl I need a girl

FML X 10 ((:


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Judgement day?]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, July 9, 2010 @ 10:26 PM]

Im tired and tired.

10 more secs to pass my 2.4 running. Just 10 more seconds. Why the hell did I walk. 37 Sit Ups and Im tired. SBJ barely making it. Shuttle Run, crossed legs for no reason. From 9.4 to 10 flat is ridiculous. The only gold is pull ups. Now Im starting to really wonder if all the training worked.

Im so depressed at the very fact that from a Silver, I cannot barely pass my ippt. The extra effort I made is so useless.

I guess I failed again in today's test. 2 days is really not enough for studying. 4 wrong questions. 4. Good game liao la.

I shall keep quiet these days. I feel myself being so annoying that Im irritated by the fact that Im so irritating. I guess Im not worth people's time at all. I should not be there at all. I should not appear at all.

NDP parade is making me damn tired. Screw this man. Im going back to how I was. But still I guess, that kind of me is still better.

At the very least, I don't feel like a bitch.

... GOOD GAME LA. I WILL MISS BS BIRTHDAY BECAUSE OF NDP. I HATE MISSING MY BROTHER'S EVENT. HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT. WTF WTF WTF. Argh....

Sorry BS...


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says I did wrong.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Wednesday, July 7, 2010 @ 10:01 PM]

Baby, do you really wanna hurt me?
Why are you doin’ this to me?
Why?

너의 다른 남자들 얘기 안 좋다는 행실들 얘기
모르는 척 못 들은 척 넘어가 보려고 해봐도

자 꾸 치근대는 술버릇 내 친구에게 짓는 웃음
고치라고 그만하라고 아무리 너에게 말해도

미안하다는 말은 다 그 때뿐 변하겠다는 말도 다 그 때뿐
내 가슴 아파 아파 아픈 걸 알면서도 자꾸만 반복되는 걸

내가 잘 잘 잘못했어 니 말이 달 달 달콤해서
맨날 말 말 말로만 날 날 날로 날 갖고 노는 걸 몰랐어

baby you’re breaking my heart. baby you’re hurting my heart.
그만두고 싶은데 잘못 된 걸 아는데 다시 니 곁에 돌아가

baby you & i 싸구려 유행가 속으론 우는데 억지로 웃는 광대
baby you & i 싸구려 유행가 속으론 우는데

미안하다는 말은 다 그 때뿐 변하겠다는 말도 다 그 때뿐
내 가슴 아파 아파 아픈 걸 알면서도 자꾸만 반복되는 걸

내가 잘 잘 잘못했어 니 말이 달 달 달콤해서
맨날 말 말 말로만 날 날 날로 날 갖고 노는 걸 몰랐어

baby you’re breaking my heart. baby you’re hurting my heart.
그만두고 싶은데 잘못 된 걸 아는데 다시 니 곁에 돌아가

삐끄덕 엇나간 내몸과 맘 자존심도 없는 바보라 난
사랑에 속고도 눈물을 닦고 이럼 안되는데 네게로 가
니가 놀다 버린 장난감 이란 사실에 기분이 참 난감
근대 왜 왜 왜 왜 난 오늘도 니 앞에서 웃는 광대

내가 잘 잘 잘못했어 니 말이 달 달 달콤해서
맨날 말 말 말로만 날 날 날로 날 갖고 노는 걸 몰랐어

baby you’re breaking my heart. baby you’re hurting my heart.
그만두고 싶은데 잘못 된 걸 아는데 다시 니 곁에 돌아가

I believe I have to go back to camp.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says End of Race Day.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Tuesday, July 6, 2010 @ 8:56 PM]

I just cannot be bothered to train anymore. Freaking tired. Brain cells dead.

I don't know what Im doing, dunno what Im thinking. LOL. Just too funny to explain.

Im just waiting for tml nights out. No matter where, no matter what, no matter how. At least I can get away from the place for awhile.

Don't even feel like going to the mess. Don't even feel like walking. Thomas sleeping like dead fish on his bed. Watch Khuntoria on WGM and it ended just like this.

I could do some research. Some reading. But Im too lazy to do anything at all. Or maybe, Im just waiting to talk to you eh.? LOL.

FINALLY, I caught my Balack. Time to collect mouse again. Gwania region and Valor.
I wonder how I fare in today's test.

Maybe if I had bought that book yesterday, I would be feeling better now. zZz.
Guess I'll just stare through the night.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Race Day 3]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, July 5, 2010 @ 10:24 PM]

Met the siao kias for gym early in the morning. Feel like a pussy sia. Do abit gym here pain there pain. My body really cui ttm. Must put in more effort liao.

Had lunch at NYP. South canteen totally change into something I simply cannot understand. Just act one high class nia. Thanks for the bubble tea. LOL =.=

Went home, changed and went out with the siao kias again. Went town. Saw a few items I wanted to get. But never buy. Need to save. Cannot anyhow spend. Wait till Sept den i buy that BB belt. The cow logo damn nice can. Its almost calling me to buy it. The white belt I saw was also nice. Cheaper also. Argh.. Didn't really pass by AX. Arbo I think AX sure own the other two. LOL

Need to shop for a new pair of spectacles frame. I think this reflective frame is getting alot of attention.

Anyway, we walked a chatted from Orchard to Dhoby. Oh yeah. Passed by Dr. Martins @ Orchard Central. Im so going to get myself a pair of boots there. LOL. Although lose out to Timberland abit la. But, Timberland machiam abit ah pek ah.

Had Xin Wang for dinner. Although never eat alot but like freaking full. This time CK swipe card. Not me. Wahaha. No ledger balance. ((: Had Beef Baked Rice and Red Bean Ice.

Played arcade. Throw basketball. Just to digest our dinner. Stupid right. The machine spoil. Den CK tap once got 3 credits inside one machine. Tell the counter. Stupid pundeh refudn us 3 credits in another basketball machine. Total throw 9 rounds of basketball. Throw till the hand just nua only.

Ended the day without ANY studying. Siao liao luh. Think I can think of wat drink to drink with upstairs liao. Maybe Teh Ping not bad. LOL.

I want that belt. I want that book I saw at times.

I thought I had given up my dreams. But when I saw the book. I felt that gripping sensation in my heart. So wrong. Maybe I should get that book. I can't do it realistically, I shall fulfill this dream in that book.

Sometimes, I feel useless. Its the feeling where you think you can do something, yet you cannot do it or you are bounded by something. Where's my courage. Sometimes I wish I was that guy I was back in the days.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Race Day 2]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on @ 1:39 AM]

Traveled around Singapore today.
Took the PB from BFF. She had to bring so many PB down and its so friggin heavy. Kudos to that.

Special delivery. Another long trip. LOL

Back home charged phone and went to weili's 21st birthday. Happy 21st! Talked and caught up with them. Been so long since I chatted with my secondary school peeps. Most of them are doing well. Its a good thing I guess.

Someone's house below got pull up bar. My house below also dun have. Goose sia. Can train near home. =/

Didn't get to swim. Not swimming already since the shitholes asked me go gym LOL. 9 AM sia.. Siao liao.. I better go sleep.

I hate uncertainties... Yet in my life, its filled with it. Great ain't it.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Race Day 1]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, July 4, 2010 @ 1:19 AM]

NDP.

Was feeling tired since haven't got enough sleep. The after-effects of watching DVD with parents. Sway and sway during the parade. So damn embarrassing. But the sound of rifles and cannons were great. Having our planes fly pass over our heads was a great feeling too.

Was kinda shag today, yet somehow fulfilling. That feeling cannot be described in mere words. Felt asleep during break at the holding area. Having such a good sleep and stupid LB have to call. And its something stupid. LMAO.

I think Im down with a cold. Standing in the stupid rain for 1 and a half hours is not funny. Actually, we were in the rain for more than that period. Anyway, Ice water + Rain + Air Con. Yes. I've caught a flu. I think. But don't care. Tml going swimming anyway. Hope it doesn't rain tomorrow. Silver. Here I come.

They took our pictures, but I don't see it anywhere online. I need it for my video montage. Come on and make my job easier ((:

Going to be another busy day soon. Swimming, birthday party and going to settle somethings.

I feel Im irritating. Am I? If I am please tell me. Cause I feel I am irritating.
Sometimes, I just too busybody for my own good. zzZ

Drowsiness owns. Going to sleep. LOL


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Its a Race]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, July 2, 2010 @ 9:52 PM]

That really does it. The kick finally comes. Its gonna be a busy week.

Skyfire went dead on me since it was 1st July. The company decided that it had not enough money to provide a server in Singapore. There goes my very fast browser.
Phone went crazy and kept saying low on storage when it had 30mb of memory left in device. Had to restore the phone. No more my original settings. Have to reconfigure EVERYTHING. And my messages all gone. zZz. Guess next time I should clear sms before the glitch happen again.

I feel weaker and more tired these days. Im so tired to the extent I feel breathless. I should do more exercise. Gonna race my timing to Silver. I need to get back my Silver. Its not an achievement. Its an requirement. My standards are not just a pass. Besides, a 100 dollars for it, why not?

I should stop behaving so selfishly. I was only me me and me. I think of myself more. I should change that. I need to care more. I need to listen more. I need to think more.

Test stress impact hitting on me since there's no tips for it. Hope miracles will happen on Tues. Meanwhile, all I can do and have to do is to... Study the whole damn book....
IPPT stress impact. Silver. Silver. Silver. Silver. Silver....

The race begins today. ((:


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Double the shots]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Thursday, July 1, 2010 @ 8:28 PM]

Ever since that day, I told myself never to step in again. Gave myself a stab and never let it heal.

I told myself how stupid I was. How not worth my time it was. How I got hurt in the process of it. I tot I could forget, yet somethings are always etch deep inside your heart.

I wanted to try again. Yet Im afraid of falling. Im scared of the consequences.

I know how it would end up. I know how the game is played. I know its a game. I know that in the end I can win the game. Yet, deep inside me I know Im not the kind that would win this game even if I could. I chose to believe that it would eventually destroy me further. It would be me that will be cliffhanging towards the end.

Yet, I see hope. Rather I wished. I hoped. I wished things will not turn out the same as before.

I told myself, no matter the outcome. Good or Bad, take it like a man.
Turns out before I psycho-ed myself into believing that shit. I got chickened out even before starting.
Tell me the things I want to hear and hope you would tell me. Because Im true. Im real. Im there.

The question now is, to step on it or to step in it. Different perspective of view yet similar situation is so many ways. Am I up to it.

Lets live it peacefully. I shall not think about it and enjoy the moments till the time comes.

Maybe Im just not the one.

So much stuffs to settle. So little energy for it. GST credits are in. Im expecting a treat for lunch from someone. =P And I will wake up for sure, because you are treating. LOL.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says T--I-R to E and a D]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, June 28, 2010 @ 10:04 PM]

Why can't the weapons of war be more simple.

My head is like a Mark 82 bomb now.

Today was fun, lets have lunch every week, shall we? =P


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Camp..]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Thursday, June 24, 2010 @ 8:29 PM]

First time posting in camp.

Having so much to say yet couldn't really express them in words. Sometimes I wonder if its me or my luck. Or rather the way I portray myself to others. Do you really know me that well? Am I really that good. Or am I really that bad. Its always the extremes. Sometimes, I just wanna be in between..

I just wanna say.

I miss the times I was with Shawn's class. Misses Me Sis. And all the crap there was to say.
I miss the times I was with my telematics class. Where we made fun of Ying Han all the way.
I miss Skypebox. Seriously. But I guess it'll be weird to go back there.
I miss the time when I could talk with Vina for very very long periods. From morning till evening in school.
I miss the times when I could hang out with bros and talk cock the whole day. When our problems were mainly just "very sian" and "bgr"

Somethings are never going to return.

I should really set out some thoughts.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says So Be It]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, May 31, 2010 @ 12:53 PM]

So Be It.

I Give Up Totally.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says zZz]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Saturday, May 29, 2010 @ 2:54 AM]

Sick. Tired. And Irritated.

I hate dust. Gonna spam magic clean when I get back to base. The dust literally just flies pass your eyes.

Forget what I wanted to say. I'll go to bed since I pop-ed two Panadols.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Stay-In]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, May 28, 2010 @ 1:14 AM]

Screwed up systems. Just when I tot I got my pay calculated right, the news announced a bonus for civil servants. (Ironically, I prefer us to be call government workers.) But I guess more money ain't an issue. Guess I'll just spend more time calculating money. ((:

The place was a disaster. Okays, not that scary. Its just warm and frigging dusty. Do the NSFs ever do area-cleaning at all? Seriously, sleeping for two days had made my nose irritated. How not to get pneumoconiosis? LOL!

A long weekend to spend. How good can they get.

I've been neglecting my guitar. LOL. There's just too little time to actually play it. And self-learning ain't easy. But it definitely is a great way to shave off the 15 mins while waiting for the next horn.
Speaking of Mousehunt. Screw it man. My Dracano luck is not good. Two more ambers. Its that hard isn't it?

Maybe I should paste my RDR poster on the ceiling. Or on the walls. But the room has no lock. Just my luck. It would be heaven if there was an air-con, laptop and fridge. They should really invest in such things. Research shows that humans work faster and harder in a great environment. Look at how Google is built. That is called a workplace.

I wonder how much the Blackberry cost. Wonder if its good. It seems to be a waste of money to change phones so fast.

Amazing things happen when you least expect it. I wonder what's next.

Min-Kyung is dream girl. ((: Powerful Voice + Angelic Face. What else can you have?

I need :
1 Box of Magic Clean
1 Set of Air Fresheners
1 Multi-Plug


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Life.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Tuesday, May 18, 2010 @ 9:18 PM]

8 chapters in one week. Hundred over pages of words. Font size 10. Test this Friday. On the whole bloody book. Its no wonder they gave tips as if you'll have the answers in your hands.

Updated to Windows 7.
The Hi-def I couldn't get on the old OS was amazing since I have it now!! Epic sounds in my ears.

Falling Slowly - 30% Got stuck at the verse b4 strumming. Though I know the chorus strums
Qing Tian - 50%
More Than Words - Haven't really started it. Intro is okay.

Damn. I need my next pay. Lmao


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Laughs]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, May 14, 2010 @ 10:27 PM]

I guess. This is the end of it. I have no idea why the change. Maybe its my fault. It doesn't matter how big that fault is anymore. Though it may be one you deem as a big one, yet to me it doesn't seem a matter to be blown up at all. DPDP. Maybe its pure being bias. Maybe its profiling. It actually doesn't matter. It doesn't matter even what the fault is anymore.

It showed the facts. Unity, strength. Yet hysterically it was that strength and unity that showed the haterism. It showed that I'm not worthy to be one of you guys. Maybe that's the case.

Ironically, I could understand that fact. Yet I couldn't understand the extents took to "remove" me.

The whole boo boo could have just ended with just a sentence. "We hate you/We don't like that. Please leave/Please don't do that again."

Yet it turned in to a heated battle over the world wide web we called internet. 2 little social network we engage in. Twitter and Facebook.
It was a twitter war. Though one sided since I didn't really retaliated and just accepted that fact.

Yes, it may be my actions. My words. My thoughts. Yea, everything started from me. I don't deny that fact. I treated you people like friends. People who knew me. Know I'd rather people just fuck me straight in the face and be honest. Rather den sarcasms and verbal attacks. Yet, I felt being stabbed. Its not backstabbing. Its that kind of ache that goes, "Ah. I see. That is how u treat me. I know finally."

Its been bugging me. Some of the people who were in it. I don't even really talk to you much. And you could just blabber away like I owed you something from the previous life. Do I offend you. Yes, I may offend your friend. But you took sides and decided to join in the poking. Yes, you will be right to say, of course you would help your friend. Maybe I'm not that close enough for you to take a neutral side. I'm not saying you should help me. But its keeping quiet that hard. Its between me and that particular person I may have offended.

And it brings back what I said above. That power of strength and unity.

I chose to leave. No matter who are the people who hates me or not. It really doesn't matter. I rather not be a prick and let everyone feel awkward with me around. I'm not trying to make myself sound noble. I'm just trying to say that I may be that tit tat irritating. But I feel its not enough to condemn a person with just that. Nobody has the rights anyway. I've learnt to accept everyone. Have you?

And to whom I may have offended. I apologize. I'm sorry. As much as I could say this. I believe it doesn't make a difference.

And to whoever who didn't expected that, I'm still there. I don't hate you guys. I just don't wanna spoil everyone's mood if its so hard having me around. Give me a ring, a text, leave a message. Chat with me. I'm fine with it.

I miss the fun we had together, I'll remember the good things we shared. That is the best I can do I guess at this point of time.

I don't hide who I'm referring to unless its something very personal. Something that only my brothers and I know. And it makes a point to people who reads this space. Posts that doesn't have names. Its not about you. No matter how coincidentally it may seem to be it. Its not.

And to end this post. This whole post is dedicated to the lovely people from Soshified Family SG.

As much as I know this post would stir up stuffs again. Please. Read and forget. Let go and stop the flames if you're going to flame me with reference to this post. Lets end this peacefully here. I've said my piece. You've shown you're stand. We're even.

Be happy always people. And move on with life to the fullest.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Its like Isomania.. Ahahah~~~]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, May 2, 2010 @ 4:30 AM]

Fugged. Im suppose to get stuffs done later and gym with CK & Des. Yet Im not asleep.

Had a chat with peppermint niece just now. Apparently, only got better for that period.

Was reading the past post, was suppose to make me feel better, yet it didn't.
Was reading the friendster comments from the past, tot it would bring me laughter, not enough to crack me up though.

Father's selling the damn house, no matter how much I don't wanna move, its not my say. 10 groups of people came to visit the house. WTF. Well, the Circle Line entrance is just opposite the road. Its just freaking convienient. They came in and walk out. I was thinking if our flat is that good, might as well don't sell it.

Pocky Hunt tomorrow.

Im sorry that I loved you before. You are just a nightmare to me now.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Emo?]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Wednesday, April 28, 2010 @ 1:53 AM]

The Double Helix Bridge.

Just before the waterfront.

I was there, sometime ago? Sitting down, writing a dumb book. A story that shared between us. Or rather, a story that I thought we would share. At that point of time, the bridge was still under construction. I was sitting near the bay, lying down for a few hours. Looking at the sea, wondering alot of stuffs.

I was wondering when will the bridge be constructed. Would you be there with me to watch the scene I wanted you to. Would we be holding hands walking down the bridge, discussing what we should do the next day, or the next next day. The things that ran through my head that day were countless. At the end of the day, I found myself foolish. I thought it was just a emotional rush. Yet I remembered every single ache in my heart as if it were that day. I remembered every single detail while I was there. From the tourist couple enjoying the sea breeze to the photographer taking pictures of the Bay. Even remember how I sat down on the bench, hoping the river would float me away to somewhere far. Far enough to forget you.

I remembered I went to the Flyer next. It was quite empty at that time. The newly built ferris wheel. I wanted so much to get up. Yet I was waiting. I had no idea what. What held me back. I circled round the Flyer like some dumb ass. Trying to sync every step, wondering how it would be like if you were there with me.

I remembered it started to drizzle. I walked back from the Flyer to Marina Square. Wanting to see the flight of stairs I liked. I tried to imagine how it would be like with you by my side. Climbing that flight of stairs. Jumping around, hopping like little kids, yet having alot of fun. Purely just because being together. And I walked on slowly in the slow drizzle.

Half-drenched. Wasn't a really big deal since I had a hoodie. The same thing I wore when I first saw you. Funny how things seemed to be that way. Without planning, it happens. Just like whatever had happened that day. The need of escaping to that tourist spot. The need to note down whatever I wanted to say that day.

It would be cliche to say I caught a cold in the end. But that's how the story goes on. I wonder, if being mentally weak makes your body weaker. Maybe it does, I don't know.

Ironically, this should be am emotional post. Yet the my Skype <3lies are keeping me tickled with post from Thailand fans.

Im stuck in between the lines. Should I laugh at myself instead of those Thai. I think so.

If this keeps on, I will be not able to think or work properly. Please grant me the strength I had once to carry on. Such emotional trauma, why has it come back to haunt me. I need a reason, to at least find a solution to everything.

I guess I know the solution. I just lack that drive to do it. I may have the courage to free fall from a plane, or even dismantle a missile in near future. But this is something that I'll never succeed. I will be just escaping the reality of it.

(finger) Sometimes, the answer is just too simple. Yet it takes more den mere courage to succeed. Drive takes place. Yet my drive, its what holding me back.

Complications.

당신은 모르실 것입니다. 당신이. 하다 KatsuCurryDon.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Life's like this.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, April 25, 2010 @ 2:53 AM]

Been moving quite smoothly lately. Makes me wonder if its too smooth sailing for me. Complacency takes in. I'm afraid I'm so accustomed to this that I will not progress. That fear is different from any other fear. Whatever it is. Its definitely a different feeling altogether.

I wish things were much simpler. Where that "" I'm looking for. Empty. Plain emptiness


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Delayed]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Saturday, April 17, 2010 @ 1:33 AM]

Been dragging so long. So long that I have no idea where to start.

Its been 7 days since I POP. Finally out of the island after 4 months of training. Made new friends and I'm glad to say they made my life in Tekong an enjoyable one. Had good commanders to lead us even though we get punished often. The things we go through together and the conversations we had in camp will not be forgotten. I will miss you guys serious. I may not be the best platoon mate around given my character, but I hope if I offended anyone, lets put it all behind us. I wish you all well wherever you go and may we meet up once in a while or so. Thank you Taurus Platoon 4 01/10.
Do or Die will stay with me.Photos. Would be more if my parents were more IT-Savvy. LOL
Had alot of stuffs to settle. Family problems. Missed out on outings. Missed out on having fun. Signed the contract on Tues. And from there it embarks the start of my working life. Didn't expect to see WeiLong there. Anyway, the few guys who were there from Apache look kinda friendly. I'm expecting a great deal of stuffs to learn soon.

Was doing area-cleaning. While cleaning up the collections. Took some pictures of it too. I realise I missed out on the two new Pocky Flavours. I wonder if I could still find them since new Desserts are out. Banana Cake of Chocolate and Custard Cake of Strawberry. I believe the strawberry is gonna be nice. I cannot seem to find Crush's Salty Cookie Crunch anywhere near. Time to head down to Kawasaki.
Finally had time to really catch up on Mousehunt. Been neglecting it for so long since enlistment. The events had just need to happen during the time I was in camp. Luckily Ming was there. Thanks alot for helping me. I wonder if Mousehunt had poisoned me. I guess it did.

Went out with the guys from Platoon 4. Had dinner at Dhoby Ghaut's Sakura's International Buffet. Wish there were more people there. But I enjoyed the dinner much.
Chen Hang's problematic letter is still unsolved. I went down school to help him. In the end because of some stupid funfair. I have to wait till tomorrow. What kind of system is this. The security guard tells me its because of the students nowadays. I really do wonder what their parents teach them. Aren't they suppose to be more obedient den us old ones? I still don't get the link between students and my entry to the school. But I guess rules are rules. Things you go through for a real friend. ((:

Met BFF and skypo for Tom Tom's. That place, I would say not really amazing but still catches my attention. Korean Coffee. Its just like a normal cafe, just that the radio or rather the hi-fi systems were just spamming korean songs. The songs are even more updated than the ones in my pc in fact. Kudos to that. They have this magnetic plate or wireless detector that lights up when your order is done. It vibrates too! LOL. Kinda special. Be glad to go there again. Lets ton there someday. (Y)
The things you say sometimes. The stuffs you do. Sometimes I wonder whats going on. I can't understand. Maybe I shouldn't understand at all. Why the hell am I so bothered about it when its suppose to have nothing to do with me at all. I guess, even when I said I had given up. I didn't. Or rather, I gave up on something else. But whats holding me up. What is this thing that I can't rid of. So self-contradicting.

I wish life were as simple as Mousehunt. Mouse are much more easier to handle than humans. =.=


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says The Last Penguin]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, April 4, 2010 @ 4:51 PM]

Still can't get over the fact that you are a liar.

How I wish tomorrow is the Parade day.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Are you one?]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, March 26, 2010 @ 10:08 AM]

Who was the one who initially said that it would never happened. Who swore and curse and got emotional about it when I said it would eventually be what it is. Who was the one that said that its not possible.

You.

Then why am I seeing things that I shouldn't. Things that you said would not happened and happened. There's nothing wrong to it. I was the one who initially said it would be that case sooner or later. Yet I felt betrayed. I felt the prick. The situations and the things I saw.

Am I angry that you cheated me? Or that you did not tell me what was going on. Or maybe the fact that you made it and I didn't. I have no idea either. You just happened to make me jealous of you, I guess.

Believe me next time I say something.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Finally a break from solitary. Maybe not?]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, March 19, 2010 @ 9:46 PM]

It has been a long draggy week. Rain and Shine. Shine and Rain. I believe I did my best in whatever way I could. The few fall outs in camp wasn't really want exactly I wanted. Yet there are somethings I had to give up in order to finish something else. The whole of the almost two weeks in that island was decision making. Decisions to decide my future, my NS path, how things work. Its even more about sacrificing. Sacrificing my passion for survival.

Thinking back. I gained nothing except for another mean of surviving in this cock country that looks on papers. I had thought about it for a long time before making the decision. It was a desperate decision I admit. The reasons to it, for my "future", for my family, even maybe for my friends.

Trying to look on the bright side, there's nothing really wrong about it. In fact, it seemed to be to only way to could make things better. Sometimes I wonder if I should even meddle in it. Its not suppose to be in my scope of worries. Yet I'm worried about it. Maybe I did grow up. Maybe I'm not the Kapo I used to be anymore. Nope. Not that frog that cannot think.

Although it ain't really what I really hoped for. I guess for them, I can.

Choices.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Yet another jungle adventure]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, March 7, 2010 @ 6:38 PM]

Finally 21.

Happy events. Special Surprises. I love you all brothers. Didn't quite expected you guys to turn up behind me. ((: Nice and sweet.

Wishes. Skype, MSN, SMS, Through the Phone, Facebook, Twitter, Etc. Thank you all for the wishes and lucks. Too many to name. But you guys know who you are. Big thank you. The wishes really made my day.

Don't really have much to say. 21st seems to be a big obstacle. The things taken into consideration. Im feeling effing stressed up. Words not to be heard. Speeches not meant to be spoken.

Problems unsolved. Leaving it be. I hope you get and find what you want.

Few more weeks to POP. A couple more time to spent in Tekong. The things I'll miss just have to miss. I'll get over it soon. I hope.

On a brighter note. Yoona's Oh! costumes has 7 on it. My favourite number and birthday number. Just looking at it makes the day lighter.

Pop Pop Pop my collar~~~Bingul Bingul Bingul~~~Down Down Down Down Down~~~


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Just cannot be bothered anymore.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, March 5, 2010 @ 6:13 PM]

Army:
-Thrown a Frag Grenade. The feeling was explosive. Although I hope we could have thrown more than one.
-The same old fucks for the same old reason ever since we first enlisted. I guess a leopard doesn't change its spot. In this case, its a leap of leopards who never changes its spot.
-Recruitment exercises from the SAF. Gives you tens of thousand and returns you your pink IC 5 years later
-Payday, so near yet so far. When you get it, you don't get to spent it because you get confined for high keys.
-21 year old behaving like PSLE graduates.
-A 26 year old trying to deceive A level graduates. Or rather scamming them.
-Injured leg in a Training. (It will be fine)
-A fucked up rifle during simulation. The only one and only fucked up, and I carried it. I swear marksman will be mine during Live Range.
-A nowhere near gold IPPT result. Where's the one day of rest before IPPT they promised?
-The extreme hunger at night. The extreme withdrawal effects from Mousehunt. Killing.
-The lack of coins for vending machine. The Sparkling Orange sucks. Change it please.
-Thursday and Friday Straits Times. Just for the supermarket advertisements.
-Not able to visit IT Fair because of SIT test. *Grumbles*

Home:
-Mousehunting never seemed so enriching.
-Spamming of Videos, catching up with things lost during camp.
-TBTL sessions with parents.
-AvP
-The favourite music with my SONY MDR

Friends:
-Waiting for my brothers. A 3rd Sergeant, 3 3rd sergeants to be and one MAN. LOL
-Still waiting for the problem to be solved. No moves made though. I just don't have the courage and energy anymore

Things to Buy:
-Storage boxes. Squares. Transparent or not doesn't matter.
-The new collection of Pocky. Goona miss next week's one. Therefore not going to miss this week.
-Mom's Birthday Present. Loong Bin's Birthday Present.

Things to Do
-Book In.
-Revamp the room.
-Something.

I don't know what the fuck to do with my life anymore. Aimless. Just Aimless.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Pre-Field Camp Entry (Long One Finally)]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, February 19, 2010 @ 8:10 PM]

Sore Eyes. For a good whole week. I would rather call it eyes infection.

The thing fucked up about Tekong's MO is that they can say you are serious in the condition and not giving you any excuse in activity or a status.

That was how sway I got. Worse thing is packing stores and cleaning up the area. With dust and all sorts of smlj flying around. How can my eye condition get any better.

And thus, my eyes were bloody red this morning. Luckily, there was Singapore Discovery Centre and it got better after a few medications. I would prefer to go home instead.

Field Rations looked good. I wonder if it really is that nice.
Got Maggi Mee Somemore. Problem is cooking.

Whats the use of going through so many studies, courses when you cannot even plan the time properly. And blame it on everyone. If its only one or few, that is a not a problem. The problem is the WHOLE ENTIRE COMPANY are facing the same problem. Ain't it abit retarded if you didn't know the problem is with you and not us.

-
I suddenly miss you. Alot. Like seriously alot. I don't understand why. Maybe its just a sudden surge of feelings. Your "barang" its on the table. Just staying there. I wanted to give you back. I wonder what will happen if I do.
-

And, my motivation is running dry. I've been so aimlessly doing stuffs. Just aimless.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Field Camp]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Tuesday, February 16, 2010 @ 6:26 PM]

Its Time To Eat Dirt Eat Grass And Dig Grave


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Goodbye PTP]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, February 7, 2010 @ 1:59 PM]

The end of countless PT sessions.

Now starts the interesting part. The part where you get fucked for almost any shit reason they can find in the world. Knowing that sometimes, it may be unreasonable, you still have to follow and do. This is their law, their world, their monarchy.

More and more Pocky variations. No time to eat, no time to buy.

Temptations. Dropping values in bank accounts. Its time to save up.

Extinction Is Your Best Explanation For Everything.


I need to get myself some music in camp. Im lacking the artsy part of my sim.

SOC sibei easy, just like a monkey climbing a tree-eee~~~


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says This week or next week?? zZz]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @ 8:44 PM]

12 Hours Confine.. Haix..


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Wrong. So Wrong]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, January 17, 2010 @ 11:56 AM]

I was wrong. Totally wrong.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says When everything is nothing.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, January 11, 2010 @ 9:41 PM]

Have you ever felt like you have everything. Yet you have nothing at all?

That is how empty I feel. How empty I feel without you.

The stuffs going through my head now are seriously fucked up.

The presence of a laptop in camp. Just makes you even more emo, when you are already fucking emo.

I miss those days we do all the shit together.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Its amazing.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Saturday, January 9, 2010 @ 4:22 PM]

Its amazing when you have people yelling at people to do work when they themselves are not doing anything.

Its amazing that I lost my temper to that. ((:

Its amazing how they twist the law

Its amazing how we got used to liking it. Pain For Pleasure.

Been so freaking busy, countless of trainings. Not the usual slack coy. We are one of the very sway batches. The freaking xiong ones. But Im glad.

I have great friends around. Listening to my problems. Fucking me upside down when needed. I treasure them. This is the true blue relationship we share. 8 years and still going strong.

I just found the time to pack up stuffs. Didn't wanted to hang out. Cleared out alot of stuffs. Realizing it was not mine to begin with in the beginning. It was never mine. The things that were there shouldn't be there, the events that happened shouldn't had happened at all.

Its time these stuffs got return to their owners.

I'm fighting for it. Are you?


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says 2010]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, January 1, 2010 @ 1:51 AM]

I don't see the reason to celebrate the new year. Its just another day. To people who work, they get double pay. To people who study, they get one day rest. For the NSF from Tekong, they do guard duty. Although Im lucky enough not to tio, I rather tio GD den to be out and get myself f-ed up for no reason at all.

Resolutions are pretty much simple this year. Real simple.
-Gold for IPPT
-OCS or at least SCS
-Be a real bastard as proclaimed one
-Fit


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Stupid and just plain stupid.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Thursday, December 31, 2009 @ 5:11 PM]

Being stupid is.

-Shouting and knowing no matter how loud you are, you're gonna do extra.
-Sleeping for 5 or 6 hours and knowing no matter what, you're gonna say you had 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep.
-Knowing you are supposed to do it yet you don't dare to do cos you are not ordered to.
-Saying yes to climbing up 5 storeys high within 2 mins when its almost impossible. (We did it in 2mins and 28 seconds and never hit below that )
-Answering No to a Yes answer
-Secretly sprinting to the back of the company line during lunch to take the sock your buddy dropped
-Waking up in the middle of the night asking your buddy to go pee with u because its dark.
-Holding the handphone when you are suppose to sleep yet you know no one is going to sms you
-Mocking your superior even when you know you're gonna get pumped for it
-Saying laying down is favourite exercise and knowing they have an exercise made for laying down and its even worse then pumping
-Paying 30 pumping or 50 jumping jacks for 1 stick of cigarette
-Writing this post.

Tuesday was fucked up. I messed up totally. Its hard to hold two fucking positions at one time. Especially at one time when both positions are needed. You think I monkey god ah, can split two figures. Platoon IC days are over!! Woot. Thank you buddy for coming back from GD. ((:

And, I actually found karaholics in my platoon. LOL.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Army]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Saturday, December 26, 2009 @ 2:40 AM]

Army is

Doing PT
Obeying Orders
Running Up and Down Stairs
Eating Fast
Marching to Everywhere to do Anything
Drills
Running
Going toilet with another guy
Booking In
Booking Out.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Shouldn't Be Here.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, December 11, 2009 @ 8:44 AM]

It's a good hair day today.

My hair look extremely nice today. A good thing or bad thing?

Soon. Im Going In. Into a New World.

Im goona miss every single thing on this island.

Promise me something will ya.
Take Care of yourself if you're reading this. (Y)


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says I Promise]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on @ 1:49 AM]

I promise.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says ]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, December 7, 2009 @ 7:53 PM]

The amount of things to think of.
The amount of shit I have to go through.
The amount of work Im doing now.

Im failing.

Or maybe.. I failed already.

Will be gone for a while. Don't bother looking for me.

I lost a friend... just LIKE THAT.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says 5 AM]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Thursday, December 3, 2009 @ 5:05 AM]

Win. 5 AM and cannot sleep.

Scramble Eggs is Crave. But cannot on stove. Cos my mom would probably get up and cao gan.

Early in the morning. Late into the night. The kind of 不三不四 timing, listening to Opera 2 by Vitas. Total Win.

Im finally found great use for my MDR. ^^ Freaking amazing sound. Wonder what it would be like on an external sound card.

Haix. Not going on well with the LED boards. Freaking lot of problems suddenly. Jinja SMLJ@SG.COM.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Fark la.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Wednesday, December 2, 2009 @ 3:45 AM]

Can't Farking Sleep La.

I tried.. Seriously.

That ache and pain, everytime I flipped that book. Everytime I look at the pictures.

ARHH!! JINJA FML... o.0


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Give up.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on @ 2:12 AM]

I Give Up.

Thinking about all those shit.
Making me not able to sleep.
There's always the input. But the output is not there.

No matter how hard I try.

Should I Give Up?


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Torned]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, November 29, 2009 @ 6:53 PM]

I <3 my brothers, they <3 me. LOL.

I seriously wonder how am I gonna survive without them. 8-12 years of friendship is no joke. Sometimes I feel, they are more of a family to me than my own family.

Despite the constant complains. Despite the screwed up fact of how screwed up they are. I still feel that need to take responsibility. Aish.. So much for being gentleman. I guess blood is blood after all.

Ate with soshi dudes the other day. So freaking enjoyable. And stumbled on Milk Coffee Pocky. New Collection. I considering whether to get the new box art for crush. I've been eating Pocky crush so much that I got sick of it. Its not freaking cheap either to buy crush.

Went out with brothers and found ALMOND!!! Limited edition. How cool can that be.

I guess, I should really listen and take it easy. Stress accumulating these days. I need to go back to the chillax pace.

Things to do:
1.) Find someone to sound horn for me during my book in.
2.) Finish up that darn LED board.
3.) 3 Big Boxes
4.) Find someone to eat up the Pocky crush if Im buying it.
5.) Forget about that.

Stubborn? I think so too.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Why]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, November 20, 2009 @ 3:08 AM]

3 Big Boxes.

This family, is it breaking or are we moving towards a better future?

Me, to fulfill my wishes, follow my heart and try to forgo the guilt I will take for my rest of my life.

Is it even a fight anymore? Its not anymore, its become a choice. A choice that will impact not only me, but my family and friends. A road that I want or I dreamed of.

To slave under the hands of our nation's loan sharks and be "normal" or to be as carefree as possible, leaving behind everything and start on a new life of my own. A life where its only me. A selfish road.

Filial Piety, must I? What do I really owe them? Why is it the support they given me makes me even more guilty den ever before. What if the road I chose wasn't a really good idea at all. What if I didn't make it. They would probably welcome me back. Yet I would be too ashamed to face them.

So many factors to consider. The choices are not freaking favorable in either way. One wrong step will crumble the family. One wrong step will bring the worst case scenarios.

Someone tell me my worries or for nothing at all.

Why has things changed to this. Is it only me, or its what everyone is going through. Or maybe mine is much of a problem because of my character.

All the "I don't want" and the "I hate" and the "Not me"
Are those even worth talking about in this case.

Happiness for the first few years and be guilty for the rest of the life.
Unhappiness for life but guilt-free for life too.

_|_ u all money suckers. I can't deny you're a great man. A person that I may not even be equal to. But my heart goes out to the people more den you do. If y0u think wasting so much money on a cage is improving our lifes. Let me tell you its not.
I admit Im lazy, I don't study that well. So Im in no position to complain as much. But let me tell you this. There are people who work billion times harder den me and yet they got caught dead in thier tracks because of your stupid education to your heirs.

The rich, will always be rich. Driving a Benz at 20. Married at 23. You think you're rich. Well here's to you _|_ Imagine if your father wasn't an heir to a listing company, you're rich?
To be honest, the things I know behind are way too much for you to take if you were to know about it. Things happen for a reason. And so there is a reason your father is what he is today.

Drinking red wine and eating luxurious meal everyday is life? Let me tell you whats life. Life is a tiger finding its prey for food, waiting one whole afternoon just to catch a dear and not waiting for his father to feed him. Life is planting grains on half-fertile soil and trying to farm the rice that you took care of it for so long and not eating cooked rice from some fancy restaurants.

Life isn't fair. Sometimes I get so disgraced of the levels in society that I feel I should die from this world to lessen the burden of a failed civilization.

Out.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Moving On]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, November 9, 2009 @ 2:51 AM]

Its a stage where everyone have to choose.

The matter is I don't know how and don't know what. The shit problems going through my life.
The road Im choosing.

Its so messed up. My life is so messed up.

Because of you two, Im forced to make a decision fast. Im not pushing the blame. But I don't see others going through the same shit as me, giving the same environment we're in. So why am I facing all these by myself.

Freedom or Family. Its a fucking hard decision.

Why can't I just leave everything down and proceed. Why must I care about what will happen if I would to choose something I want to do. Why do I care about the feelings.

What is a "life"

Screwed.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Undeniable Languages]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, November 6, 2009 @ 3:41 AM]

Arab Street -> Haji Lane -> Bugis -> Orchard
Arab Street = Bubble Tea
Haji Lane = Photos
Bugis = Big Rain
Orchard = Waste Money
Therefore, Arab Street + Haji Lane + Bugis + Orchard = Bad Day ((:
( Bad Day ((: ) = (Bad Day) ( ((: )
( ((: ) = Photos

Photos =
Priston Tale 2 = 7/10
Priston Tale 2 Patch = 0/10
Therefore PT2 = Fail

Lets live it like this shall we?


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Useless Rambles]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Monday, November 2, 2009 @ 7:29 PM]

Stereotyping. Is this what everyone is good at only? Go get a god damned mirror before you start stereotyping people. Did it ever crossed your mind that you are like this also?

웃어
Move it Move it 1 2 Step
You gotta dream it 1 2 Step

웃어 웃어 웃어

Its the very first this kind of lyric appeals to me. Tell me how to 웃어 when we living like this?


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Where's my Hollowhead? o.0]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, October 30, 2009 @ 12:37 AM]

I feel like farking myself upside down.

Such careless mistakes. 4 blind spots and it took my 8 point TP away. And there we go, another few hundred wasted.

Wishlist and Want. Before I really go botak.
Get A New Hair Colour. Yes. Something real crazy.
Shoe.
The Red Denim That I Love So Much.

Something worth being happy everyday.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Worth.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Saturday, October 24, 2009 @ 5:08 AM]

Worth it?

Or not. I don't know anymore. I give up on the thinking.

Im like Hiro. But he's way more luckier den me. At least he has powers.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Inflation.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, October 23, 2009 @ 11:45 PM]

TP's coming. I have 330 bucks left. Guess I'll be spending the rest of it to fail my TP.

11 Dec is like so fast.

I just wanna finish the things I haven't done yet. Like.. forgetting.

I must be crazy to do so many stupid stuffs these days.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Good Bad?]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Wednesday, October 21, 2009 @ 3:07 AM]

I have forsaken this place for so long.

I've been busy lately, don't ask me question like what are you busy with. Cause Im just pure busy to say. If you know me, you'll know why Im so busy.

Beside the above crap. A even crappier thing happened. Seouled Out Concert on 12 Dec. I happily booked tickets and then the stupid letter came. 11 Dec. One day before the concert. I have to give up my ticket and concert for army. PISSED.

Wats even more pissed. School 3. PISSED.

Mousehunt, Ronza came. Shit Items. PISSED.

TP on 29th.

Monetary Problems.

Anyway, set up a small business with my friends. Check it out and support! Help spread it to other people. http://xpressone.livejournal.com/ Thanks alot. ((:


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says I never had the chance to say,]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, October 11, 2009 @ 10:26 PM]

how much you meant to me.

Guess sleeping doesn't really help.
Spammed food at home, didn't help.
Tried not to online, could not resist mousehunt.
Blasted music on speakers, got nagged by mom.
Same thing happened on headphones, "can you hear me?"
Tried to find her, no where to be found.
Comedies, didn't help.
Brothers, all gone.
Tried sleeping, couldn't fall asleep.
Read up old stuffs to forget, got even more irritated.
Tried to do some retail therapy, the wallet was too empty to do it.
In the end, you...

So much before you leave, I want to say alot of things. But I never found the courage to do so. I got restricted to the so-called "restrictions". I missed my old-self. The one who was able to screw anyone just with his mouth. The one whose able to take all the shit after what he said. The one who was never afraid to face the consequences of everything. The one who was not scared of the aftermath.

Its so hard to do something right as you grow older. The so-called restrictions. The so-called bullshit you have to consider. Everything.

Because of it, I screwed up a happy conversation.
Because of it, I screwed up my happy weekend.
Because of it, I screwed up relations.

Why do I think of so much when all I have to say is two words. *** ******.

Your Guardian Angel. The song therapy I needed to pass those agonizing shit.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Confused.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Thursday, October 8, 2009 @ 8:28 PM]

Die a happy man.. Or Die a sad man..

Choose


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Be Nice.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Tuesday, October 6, 2009 @ 10:13 PM]

The expected happened again.

Fine, let it be den. Not like Im super gain about it.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Empty.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, October 2, 2009 @ 12:03 AM]

I felt so empty. The places I walked passed seem so familiar, yet I still got lost.
Nope, I knew my directions well. I just didn't had anywhere to go, that was what I meant by lost.

Got my MDR-7506 changed today. Apparently, the sound was so good. So good to my ears that I felt bad once I tuned the volume up. Seriously, flats and neutral sounds are such a killer. It was so good that I didn't even want to use my port amp.

Went down to Funan to see the "legs" again. For that moment, I wanted to run away with the poster and stand. Zz. Will ask the shop keeper next time whether I could have it. Hope the person would be kind enough.
Shawna told me my poster turned out well. Now I can't wait to get it from her.

I overheard from that dude that served us that day when we bought the headphones. He bought his Itouch 8 gig at 250. FRIGGIN CHEAP CAN. *This sentence is for SuSe*

Ronza's not coming. Im saving up my gold for like 3 days already. Hope she don't come up with something that cost 1m gold. Goona burn the daves house if that happens.

Caps from Steph's Vids. If you know where I stand, I salute you. :)


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Screw]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Thursday, October 1, 2009 @ 2:23 AM]

Spoke with Jeff the other night. Apparently, it didn't get any better. So I went for therapeutic shopping. Bought a Sony MDR 7506. Which I aimed for like 2 weeks? Got poisoned when I took it on my head.But apparently, luck ain't on my side. My left mon didn't work when I opened it out to try. So I have to go back down the shop to change for a new one.

So friggin tired these days. Practices and more practices. My back was hurting so much that rest day I cannot even sit properly.

Whoever said Korean-Pop dances are easy. Freak you, unless ur're a born dancer.

Photos which never posted before. Here goes the few of them.
And, the story of a failed blogger. "but dammit, today malay stall no muscles, no more!"
Powerful Engrish.Time to work again.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Thank You People]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Sunday, September 27, 2009 @ 3:49 AM]

I thank you Suse for making me laugh everynight on skype.
Its something just that simple.

I know Im not a really good person. I talk without thinking sometimes. I forget simple things to avoid speaking. Im irritating at times. Im may appear very xl/gl at times. But.

Thank You all for the laughters and shit we've done.
Its all these that made me able to sleep better these nights.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Why.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Saturday, September 26, 2009 @ 3:10 AM]

Why is it so hard to do something right.
Distractions? You?

I don't know anymore.

I feel inferior. I feel like shit.

I think I should give up.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Shit]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Friday, September 25, 2009 @ 3:02 AM]

Where is my photogenic face.
Where's the self-proclaim confidence I had.
Where's the extra motivation I had.

I thought I had totally forgotten it. When even in tired times like this. Tied down with practices and crazy meetings and crap talking. The thought of you drives me nuts. Every single event that happened, Every little details thats written. The supposely happy ending I wanted. I feel so much to break down and just cry.

This shit is driving me insane. I need some release.

I need, some escape.

Was crazy few days ago when I saw my results. From the 1.701, it shot up to 2.008. I've got a 2 for my GPA! First ever 2 in my poly life. Its nothing to be proud of. Yet Im just glad there's a 2 infront.

I feel so worthless suddenly. I feel apologetic to my dear friends. To my brothers. Sorry for not taking care of myself when I said I would. Sorry to everyone who got thundered into my moodswings.

out emo-ing


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Tired, Confused, Unconfident.]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Tuesday, September 22, 2009 @ 11:34 PM]

Tired, Confused, Unconfident.

Give me some directions. Am I not fit?


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says Randomness]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Wednesday, September 16, 2009 @ 3:55 AM]

Korean Food Fair. Two rows of tables with Korean stuffs. Which apparently, you have to buy home and cook.

And we bought it to cook at Ah Chang's House.

I don't know whether you'll be reading this or not. But, Im sorry to have hurt your butt. Hahaha. Didn't expected I was going there too. But anyway, Take Care of that Butt!! Loves.

I haven't eat sushi this week. Hmmm... Maybe Friday.


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?

[KatsuCurryDon Says The Return Of The Feelings]
[Spiced Up The Bowl on Tuesday, September 8, 2009 @ 10:09 PM]

Better type something in before my net gets worse.

And so my internet crashed. I stayed home today to spam net activity just to have my modem GL me. So called Starhub to have this Pinoy tell me about alot of shit and said she call back. She did, it was 3 hours later. In the end, I have to wait for a technician on Thurs to fix my damn net. I hope he comes early.

Those sickening feelings came back. It always does when I try. I tot I've gotten over it already. Seems like its not really that easy. Lol.

[Edit Edit]

Ah, screw the net. Networking is harder den Hardware problems.

Itching for Pocky again. o.0


In the Bowl of KatsuCurryDon, What do you see?